It’s been a long day. I put in a 9 hour day a the office. then came home and ate dinner with the boys and put them to bed, then started working for another 4 hours.

Finally got to hang out with my wife for a half hour and just talked.

The big struggle for me today was being simultaneously aware of my strengths and weaknesses and the battle royal going on between them. I dream about the big picture, and the management of the small details drives me flippin’ crazy. I have huge dreams tempered by the lack of people to fill niche roles within my ideal staffing structure…It’s just me. I’m managing IT which means purchasing tech, strategizing, networking, security, troubleshooting and more. I manage communications which means bulletins, website, promotions, graphics, announcements and more. I manage a bookstore, that has an amazing team of committed people. At times, I have my hands in media worship design…And my heart is in strategy, big picture, big vision, where are we going and what does it take to get us there?

I’m not trying to whine, I promise, just sharing why there’s a thousand webs of information blasting in my head all day…

Last week, I created a multi-nodal org chart that includes all areas I want covered with staff or volunteers. It was mind-blowing. I sometimes feel like I bit off more than I can chew. And my dear friend Neeraj asked me today…

If you don’t do it.. then who is out there that will? If your answer is nobody.. then you know who it’s on?

That’s an invitation that I warmly accept with great hesitation…

I guess it’s on me. I guess it’s on you. I guess it’s on us to decide whether or not we want to be a part of pushing this big rig forward…